Auto Pilot

I think a lot about life is constant reevaluation. Last year I had been reading a lot of books that had quite a positive effect, and I continued to follow a lot of their advice up until now. But lately many things just haven’t been working. But a problem I think many of us feel is we grow into this pattern of doing things. It’s how humans are. When you first learn to drive a car you’re very alert, but over time it becomes second nature. That is the part I feel needs to be constantly evaluated.

I have been living on auto pilot again. I’ve found myself to feel like I have been just going through motions again. Not being conscious or aware of the things around. I’ve lost complete confidence in myself and abilities. I have grow self conscious. I also set my bar too high. I want to figure out a way where I will set the bar lower. Like this is the minimum I will do.

One thing that I have been thinking about is freedom. I have freedom, but because I have come to live in fear again. I have been giving my freedom away. Those things I fear I want to break down again. Many of the things I fear are just in my mind.

Spring is coming and I want to feel it’s warmth.


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